deactivated my fb acc...i just couldnt look at everything thats on your fb anymore....never thought u would react so big...

i am so tired...so tired of everything...i kn u were tired of the relaationship too...n so was i....i couldnt pretend no more...now it bottled up and erupted....and i ended up saying some hurtful things...i hurt you again by hurting myself...

no you are pissed off..angry..too angry to listen to anything i say...too angry to understand what is really going on between us..

and more and more i think abt it the more i kn i cant lose u...

i m sorry,., i reli am...i wish i had time to tell you how i felt earlier and not just erupted like this....

sorry...but i reli love u...

i reli look forward coming back and patiently wait for u to get off work everyday to make sweet love to u...to comfort you with massages and to sleep with u after kissing u on the forehead...

I love u so much....

3 years...and still I feel so strongly about u...it fascinates me...

I love u so much ltw...........

i really want to work this out together with u...listen to each other and be happy forever...

sorry for all the hurtful things..the status..the drunken rudeness...the latter i couldnt control i m sorry...but jeez i miss u...jsut reli want to listen to your voice...esp u telling me happy birthday...but again..i m nt allowed to talk to you :( so no, god this bday is going to b harsh without u:(

God bless my exams n your exams baby.

I love u so much darren, i hope we will work this out soon!

things i couldnt say :

i want to spend every xmas wit u in the snow..............

i want to kiss n wake u up.

i want to make you noodles with egg n spam.

i want to be your bride.

i want to be...

DnG4life.

wow....that reli hurt.

I didnt kn you felt that way; n i didnt kn to you i was so shit.

indeed i appreciated everything you did for me; just like how I know you appreciated everything I did for you. n it fascinates me how u think I dont know how to appreciate....and from that article i seem so cold and heartless..

it aches every single sentence you wrote....and i kn you scarificed so much for me...just like how i did, andthus thats why i think we can do it again...

and i m sorry i wasnt there when you were alone and needed someone ...I reli did make the effort to reach on to you...coz i kn clearly you would need someone to spend your last sem...just like i would like someone so special like u to spend the first sem with me....but we never got the chance to, either u were busy...or we just ended up not meeting..i reli did tried makin the effort.

n it seems like i want to get back with u without thinking...there were countless nights i thought if i get back with u what we should do etc, even though i didnt know how big the chance was...the night i called u...i had been thinking that for over a month..becoz i kn if I did i would b reli reli into n commited into u again...

i m sorry for making u feel that way for the past 2.5 years...it reli hurt me as well to see u write sth like this...

i love u so much...i reli do..

i just wish we can talk.